The Anatomy of Madness: Essays in the History of Psychiatry

The Reunion

My computer even remembered your email address login. Fate. I didn't know you wrote blogs over summer. This is weird going back and reading it all. Some of ours are pretty boring, not gonna lie. haha. Maybe our lives are just boring? Only not, we're awesome.

Maybe I'll play First Day of my Life for you. Only I'll sing it of course off tune. So maybe it's not a good idea, maybe it could ruin the song for you. Glory sakes alive that should never happen. But I agree it's extremely adorable and just *ah*.

I felt out of it today, at least in the afternoon. Very blah. and my hair's wet, so I'm like a repeat of your yesterday self.

I felt better when I went running with Sarah, though. It was pouring rain, and dark fell while we were out. Running in the rain at night is exhilarating and it made me feel so free.

Now I'm kind of back to blahness.

Military=me either. I can't even imagine killing someone. They're soft and squishy, and just like me. oh my I still can't imagine it. I can't get past the thought of a squishy stomach. Not sure why the squishy stomach is what keeps me from it. Maybe I could kill someone with rock-hard abs? I hope not.

Youseff=DOMINATOR

Winter stuff= oh, so happy. though the cold=I could do without a la moment.

CDs = Score! I have the new Weepies one waiting. Oh how I adore them.

Me= Terrible blogger. I'm sorry? I just really feel like I have nothing to say. Nothing unboring. I think I might go to sleep. It's 9 0'clock and an early bedtime would be wonderful again. Remember at the beginning of the year where I couldn't sleep? Now it's like the opposite. That no-sleeping phase was the weirdest thing ever. I just felt really buzzy all the time and amazing and I liked it. It felt like my life was building up to something fantastic. The result was really anti-climatic, I must say.

Revival

I am listening to "First Day of my Life." It's the most adorable song ever. If I ever find a soul mate/love/whatever you'd call it, I'd like them to sing this to me, or play it. Whichever works. If only that were my life...but I have you as a friend so it's all good.

I am so happy for you and Joel though. He seems to be a thoroughly decent person. Very sweet. I think you two make a nice match. Please tell him I approve, and let him know that I just have trouble when it comes to civilized conversation, especially via the phone.

I love not having homework. I miss having free time. I must admit, I've been feeling overwhelmed lately (but I'm sure you've already realized this). All the stress is gone, for now at least. Despite this temporary relief, I've been feeling a bit 'blah' today. I can't explain it. I guess I'm just going through 'one of those days.' Whatever that means. I'm sorry if I ramble. It seems to me as if I hardly make any sense, but rather I spew random collections of words.

I don't think I could ever make it in the military. I could not bring myself to kill another human being, no matter how treacherous of a criminal they may be. I've realized that this life that we have right now is all that we can be sure of. There may be an afterlife, but it's not a 100% guarantee. That why we have to value the life we have now. This is our one for sure chance. Once, it's gone it could just be the end. I could never take that chance away from anyone else. Besides, what am I but a mere human being? Prone to bias. I have no right to make the decision of who lives and who dies. Besides, if one could kill so easily, would such action and insensitivity not level him or her with 'the bad guys'? How would we be any different from them if we were to succumb to such insensitivity and disregard for human life?

It's homeroom turkey time! I spent the other night scouring the old papers for a turkey, and finally found one. Yussef Hauss must rise to victory.

Shivers are running up my spin as my hair is still wet from the shower. Oddly enough though, I find myself enjoying this weather. I can't wait for snow, but at the same time it will be sad to see autumn leave. I love bundling up though, that's for sure. Sweaters, coats, mittens, and scarves! Oh, and really spectacular winter hats. Ah, and sipping hot cocoa or cider while wrapped up in a blanket reading a good book. How I love the cold...why am I so abnormal?

So excited, I have a bunch of CD's in at the library, including the new Margot album! I can't wait. Hopefully my mom will be able to swing by and pick them up tomorrow while I'm at school. I really want to hear their new album and see how it compares to the old. Their concert was amazing. It was the most blissful thing ever. The power of music. I especially loved singing along to their old songs. Thankfully they had the volume turned up pretty loud so that it drowned out my horrendous attempt at song.

This is where my ramblings end.

I Dreamed I Was a Ghost

last night.

When the dream began I was with you Sa and some other people from school. Then then next thing I know I'm in a building that is combusting/collapsing at the same time. Although it was surprisingly painless. Weird. Anyways, when I got outside I tried talking to people I knew but no one could hear me no matter how loud I shouted, nor could they see me. My dreams seem to be getting darker, except this one for some odd reason did not scare me as much as the one I had the other week when I almost got swallowed up by a tornado.

I've been working on my summer reading. I'm glad you enjoyed It's Kind of a Funny Story. My sources(i.e. Taylor) informs me that we unfortunately have a summer list to complete. Ick. I like reading but summer reading lists tend to put me to sleep. I love reading, but when I have to worry about analyzing every detail of what I'm reading for a future paper(that I will regretably have to write when I should be slacking off) just tends to take away from my enjoyment of it.

I am leaving in four days.

I'm leaving Saturday. I

Bruised

I don't remember exactly how it happened. All I know is that when I climbed out of the pool my left pinky toe felt quite sore. Upon further inspection, I realized that I had somehow managed to bruise (if not break) the entirety of my toe. It was, and still is covered, in splotches of blue/black and deep redish purple hues. Somehow I had managed to injure myself at the pool. I'm guessing it is likely that it happened while I was jumping into the shallow end of the pool although I can't be sure. It's unusual though, because as often as I make a fool of myself with my klutsy nature, I rarely end up injuring myself, and I've been involved in some pretty ridiculous incidents. Thankfully though, I am able to walk on it so hopefully that means it's not actually broken.

On a happier note, I am definantly looking forward to working on our fantastic summer list. Hopefully it will keep us occupied for most of the time so I won't end up staring into space with nothing to do. Such always seems to be the risk with all of this freedom, a lack of things to do. Thankfully we have a pretty extensive list of summer activities. I am greatly anticipating color day.

I am already 2/3 through with the driving portion of drivers ed. Huzzah.


Poppy Shakespeare was phenominal! I just finished it the other week and I absolutely loved it. I definantly think that the ending really helped my opinion of the book. Which reminds me that I still have to finish One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest. Although, overall I have to say It's Kind of a Funny Story, is definantly my favorite relating to the subject, actually it's probably my all time favorite book. Reading Poppy Shakespeare though kind of got me thinking about those whom society deems as "mentally ill." What if some of these so called mentally ill patients are actually created by the workings of society. Maybe we only think of them in such a way because they do not fit in with our view of how other members of society should conduct themselvs. Maybe we create these classifications of others to make ourselves feel better about our standing in society. Maybe?

It's been forever since we made one of our lists so I'm going to make two:
numero uno is favorite smells:
1)the smell of a bonfire, it always reminds me of fall(pretty much my favorite season)
2)the smell of my granny's house
3)the smell of my pillow, it reminds me of sleep and calm.
4)any good smelling food, this would probably include spicey foods, and chocolate

numero dos is current favorite songs
1)the artist by the hush sound, love the lyrics
2)mariella by kate nash, i adore her voice, plus the song tells a nice little story
3)the car song by the cat empire

Happy Summer!

Almost There

Ah, only three days of school left! As much as I love it, i must say I'm ready for it to be over. I have reached a point of final exhaustion. Hopefully I'll be able to make it through these next few days. I've been working on my final project this weekend. I didn't realize it would involve so much detail. I suppose that's a good thing though because it will help add on more hours to the time I spent on it. I'll feel so relieved once it's all over.

Summer is going to be ah-mazing though! All thanks to our most awesome summer list!!! I am so excited. I hope we can complete all of it, there are so many awesome feats to complete this summer. I am particularly excited for color day. I can tell this is going to be a good summer.

Was the talent show not amazing?! The acts were amazing. I do agree that the diverse mix of acts was nice. Especially compared to Pike's which pretty much just turned into a crump-a-thon this year. It was kinda funny, but after a while it all seemed the same. The people in our school's though were pretty talented. OH MAN, but that random homeless guy totally made the show for me. I think what made that whole scenario so great was that fact the it was Hurst who had to deal with it. I was dissapointed that the show had to be cut short though. Hopefully there will be a time for them to finish off the last act.

Well, summer is practically here, get excited!!!

Hello Old Blog

Man, it has been so long since i wrote on this blog. Remember the begining of this blog trend? It was so awesome! I think maybe we need to revive this lovely trend. It's difficult to keep up with though on a daily basis with all of our end of the year projects. I do like our blog though, it's such a shame I've been so occupied with other stuff lately.

Anyways, in recent news, Sa, Lyd and I have been walking to the library the past two days after school. It was such amazing weather too with blue skies and the sun shining down. Of course now it is raining. Honestly, it seems as if it only rains on the weekends when we actually have time off. I am definantly thinking though that we should be spending a lot more time walking to the library when the weather is appropriate. And these random people we see are pretty amusing too....

Three Day Weekend!!! So pysched, although it's quite likely that I will probably spend the majority of the weekend working on all of my school work. Or perhaps even more likely, I will intend to work on them but in actuality we all know I'll find something less productive to do. Chances are that all of my work will pile up until the very last week and I'll have to rush. I know that I've always procrastinated in the past but it's at an all time worse this year. Honestly. Last year I would have finished a project the weekend before it was due but now a days I wait till the night before. The odd thing is that even though I know I have a lot of responsibilities to tend to I just can't bring myself to care....Maybe I'm just lazy or too focused on the coming summer holiday to give much attention to school work. Hopefully it will pass though, but it's difficult when you're apathetic about being apathetic. I doubt that made any sense....

A night on the town sounds awesome right now. Hopefully I can work something out. Swing dancing and or bowling sounds fantastic for I haven't been it what seems like forever. I remember that we would always go last year, but we would always be so drained by the end of the week that we could barely stand, let alone dance for two hours. Yet somehow I still managed to go and enjoy it. Of course, it was also a bunch of elderly people too whenever we went too. I remember when you, Sa, danced with that old man, haha. Good times.

P.S. latest music obsession=Kate Nash!!! I absolutely LOVE her voice. Man, I wish could sing like her. Ah, she's amazing though, a must for musical listening.

....that was so akwardly worded

musical moods

I sometimes wish that Ben Gibbard lived in my basement and that he would play beautiful compostions on his guitar accompanied with the soothing sound of his lyrics and that they would float up through the vents and fill my house with their heavenly sound. That would be amazing. I could be up reading late into the night when I'd randomly hear that beautiful music playing in the backround soothing me to sleep.

Speaking of my basement though, I am considering the possibility that our old tv down there may possibly be possessed. Not quite certain whether to take that assumption as solid fact or fiction but i had the oddest experience this afternoon. So when I got home from school I decided to run on the treadmill down there while watching malcolm in the middle, and suddenly the screen just turns to static and all I can hear is white noise. I then try turning the channel and then try to turn it off, but the TV wouldn't. I couldn't even shut the power off on it so I pretty much had to completely unplugg it and then plug it back in. It worked for a while before doing the exact same thing happened again. It also did this thing where random numbers just started randomly changing in the corner where the number of the channel satition should be but i wasn't even holding a remote. So freaky! It's unplugged now though so hopefully it hasn't found a way to turn itself on, which according to my parents that tv use to randomly turn itself on in the middle of the night. Super creepy. My only explaination for these odd occurancies is that it's a pretty old tv, actually I think it may have been my great grandmother's tv or something like that.

Our poor blog has fallen out of use temporarily. It is quite sad. I suppose we are just really lazy. Or just have lives with better things to do in our spare time, haha.

So I was talking to Auds in ceramics, she told me about you're whole "So how long have you and Abby been going out?" conversation, and we think that we should have another homeroom party soon because we haven't had one in quite a while and they always make my day ten times better. I mean, how can good food and a party not put you in a good mood? I'm thinking next week or possibly this week if we can figure something out because we need something to look forward too(not that I don't love school already or anything, but it would be like the frosting on the cake, you know? wait, you don't like frosting, so uh maybe ignor that analogy...)