Because that I how thankful I am for friendship. I am quite thankful as well, for everything. I realize that while my life isn't perfect and that's alright with me. Plus, all the chaos sure makes it more interesting.
I dreamed last night that the interstate exit by Lydia's house was actually one massive field of wheat and wild flowers bordered by forest but Lydia's neighborhood was still present at the end of the field as well as that strip of road. It was warm and you and I were in sundresses running across the field. The sky was a dark blue color which was quickly fading into an even darker grey-black hue and filled with dark heavy storm clouds. It was the calm before the storm. I think we were running to the road. To avoid the on coming rain storm perhaps?
Then I woke up and realized that it was actually cold outside.
Saturday, November 29, 2008
Thursday, November 27, 2008
Sunday, November 23, 2008
If Time is Measured In Memories,
Don't Set Your Clock to Misery!
I agree, children's toys now-a-days seem quite frivolous. Have you noticed the majority of them all have to do with video games and television? The toy industry, it seems, is out to brainwash our society's children. What shall we ever do? It's quite sad. I fear that future generations won't be able to think for themselves. I fear they may be losing their innovative and creative ability. I fear they won't be able to entertain themselves without the presence of a television screen. I never had an easy-bake oven...but they always looked so fun. I remember that majority of my childhood was consumed by coloring books, crayons, paint, and playing out in the back yard. I didn't have much exposue to technology as a child. I recall that my parents would always limit my tv time. Good 'ol Mom and Dad, always looking out for my well being. Another thing, I feel that the quality of children's television has also decreased over the years. I remember growing up with shows like "Wishbone" and "Bill Nye the Science Guy." Mr. Roe talks about all the kiddie shows his son watches and they sound supper trippy and pointless. I'd never let my children watch that (if I had children that is). Oh dearie me, what is the world of children coming to?
Do you ever wish we could go back in time? Back to a more simple time without the distractions of the internet and television where people would actually go outside and play. Or when it was safe to wander and explore the woods on your own. Or when you could drop out of school and join the circus (like in "Water for Elephants," which I finally finished over the summer. You can tell Katie that I really liked it.)
Can we keep this blog forever and continue to write on it even when we're older and living on completely different sides of the world? What if after college we were to loose all forms of communication and this blog was the only thing holding our friendship together until one day we coincindentally met on a random street corner in new york in front of a local coffee house? Unlikely, still it could make for an interesting story. Maybe we should write a book of short stories together. I'm not the best writer though. I wish I had the ability to compose eloquent pieces of writing but I fear the majority of what I write sounds very disconnected and simplistic. Still, no harm in trying I suppose.
I wonder how we'll view ourselves in the future or how much different we will be then in contrast to now. I feel I've changed a good deal in only the past year. I've become a much more open and social individual, not to mention all of the changes in my physicall appearance. But then I also realized that a number of my interests are quite the same, take classical music or art for an example. Although the ways in which I execute the creation of art have changed. I feel as if I'm completely different, yet the same.
I agree, children's toys now-a-days seem quite frivolous. Have you noticed the majority of them all have to do with video games and television? The toy industry, it seems, is out to brainwash our society's children. What shall we ever do? It's quite sad. I fear that future generations won't be able to think for themselves. I fear they may be losing their innovative and creative ability. I fear they won't be able to entertain themselves without the presence of a television screen. I never had an easy-bake oven...but they always looked so fun. I remember that majority of my childhood was consumed by coloring books, crayons, paint, and playing out in the back yard. I didn't have much exposue to technology as a child. I recall that my parents would always limit my tv time. Good 'ol Mom and Dad, always looking out for my well being. Another thing, I feel that the quality of children's television has also decreased over the years. I remember growing up with shows like "Wishbone" and "Bill Nye the Science Guy." Mr. Roe talks about all the kiddie shows his son watches and they sound supper trippy and pointless. I'd never let my children watch that (if I had children that is). Oh dearie me, what is the world of children coming to?
Do you ever wish we could go back in time? Back to a more simple time without the distractions of the internet and television where people would actually go outside and play. Or when it was safe to wander and explore the woods on your own. Or when you could drop out of school and join the circus (like in "Water for Elephants," which I finally finished over the summer. You can tell Katie that I really liked it.)
Can we keep this blog forever and continue to write on it even when we're older and living on completely different sides of the world? What if after college we were to loose all forms of communication and this blog was the only thing holding our friendship together until one day we coincindentally met on a random street corner in new york in front of a local coffee house? Unlikely, still it could make for an interesting story. Maybe we should write a book of short stories together. I'm not the best writer though. I wish I had the ability to compose eloquent pieces of writing but I fear the majority of what I write sounds very disconnected and simplistic. Still, no harm in trying I suppose.
I wonder how we'll view ourselves in the future or how much different we will be then in contrast to now. I feel I've changed a good deal in only the past year. I've become a much more open and social individual, not to mention all of the changes in my physicall appearance. But then I also realized that a number of my interests are quite the same, take classical music or art for an example. Although the ways in which I execute the creation of art have changed. I feel as if I'm completely different, yet the same.
Hm I am Slow
It has taken me forever to reply. Lately, I have felt that there is so much I need to be writing down, so much I should be chronicling for my future self, but I have had absolutely no motivation to. I really worry for Future Sara, that she'll know nothing of who I am now, and never understand teenagers. I found myself looking at kids ads in the paper today and I was thinking how I would never get my kids something so stupid as, hm I can't remember what it was, but it was stupid. But what if that's what Kid Sara would have loved? I'm already out-of-touch with the youngins! oh my! However, I did see an Easy Bake Oven, something I will always buy my kids, no matter their gender.
I agree, lip balm wrapped in money, wrapped in a love note would be the ultimate random find.
And I'm glad you like classical music too. Because sometimes, when I'm alone in my car, I just turn it on and jam. It's fun to think of stories that go with the music. When I was younger (aka like two years ago), I used to make up 'ballet' dances to classical music in my room. Yup. I wonder if other teenager still find things like that dorky. Because since I've gotten into high school, I've stopped finding those things bad. More interesting. Less typical (though what if it's just typical adult? an atypical teenager is an adult? hm...)
I forgot we had a history chapter to read.
I agree, lip balm wrapped in money, wrapped in a love note would be the ultimate random find.
And I'm glad you like classical music too. Because sometimes, when I'm alone in my car, I just turn it on and jam. It's fun to think of stories that go with the music. When I was younger (aka like two years ago), I used to make up 'ballet' dances to classical music in my room. Yup. I wonder if other teenager still find things like that dorky. Because since I've gotten into high school, I've stopped finding those things bad. More interesting. Less typical (though what if it's just typical adult? an atypical teenager is an adult? hm...)
I forgot we had a history chapter to read.
Monday, November 17, 2008
"If I'd Only Thought Of Something Charming to Say..."
Ah, did you see the snow today? You must have. Wasn't it beautiful? I find running in this kind of weather is actually quite enjoyable, once you get over the initial chill of course. The cold air always leaves me feeling refreshed and alive. I love the feel of the wind teasing my hair, the soft sting of the cold against my skin, and the warm cloud of breath that puffs about as I exhale. Why do I love the cold dark seasons so much? I wonder what this says about me/my psyche. Maybe it's really nothing at all. I just think there's something really beautiful about the cold mixed with the barren exposed landscape. Sometimes it's frozen and lonely, but it doesn't always have to be that way. Other times it's inviting and warm as friends snuggle together for warmth. Perhaps, subconsciously, the cold prompts us to reach out to one another because it's the only way to keep warm and consequently it brings us closer together. Lonesome yet intimate.
Finding the dual nature in things always interests me. I love finding out unusual facts about people. It's always refreshing as it reminds me there's always more to see then what we initially perceive. It makes me want to dig deeper and see what else is hidden from my plain sight, fueling my curiosity. Irony is my favorite. It's entertaining and clever, but also cruel and bizarre. I suppose you could say irony itself is quite 'ironic'.
The blahness seems to have departed for the most part. My emotions at this moment are actually quite serene and peaceful. I'm not sure why. I suppose I shouldn't question it. I don't know if I'll ever fully understand the way my brain works, as much as I'd like to. Maybe if I ever get to study psychology I'll be able to find some answers. I'm so intriegued by the workings of the human mind. I know that it's impossible to understand, but nevertheless I want to learn as much as I can about it. I think this desire to study psychology my have stemmed from a desire to better understand myself and the people around me. What better way to understand something then going to its very core, in this case it would be the mind.
I found some lip balm in the pocket of my sweatshirt. Can you say "Victory!"? That's another one of the things that I really like. Finding lip balm. It's only second best to finding money. Okay, ultimate fantasy find right here, are you ready for this? Imagine finding lipbalm wrapped in a twenty dollar bill concealed within a love note. Could it get any better?
Let's take a little trip down memory lane...
Do you recall our musical interests from fourth/fifth grade? Enya and classical music? Well, I found myself reliving my fourth grade music interests this weekend. It all started with my nap friday. I decided to listen to some music to calm myself down and put myself in a sleepy mood as I fell asleep as well as drown out the murmur of the television downstairs. But I can't really listen to music with lyrics when I'm trying to slumber. I get lost and distracted by lyrics. So I'm thinking I may need to add some classical tracks to my ipod, such as Beehtoven and whatnot. Ha, I know, what a nerd right? To be honest though, I still like that kind of music. I just find it to be so soothing and elegant. I really hope I can master the piano. It's doubtfull that I'll be able to compose anything at all, but I would still be satisfied with the simple task of playing such a beautiful instrument. I really like the violin, but my playing was horrendous! I think the piano is a much safer choice sound-wise. It doesn't come out as harsh and squeeky under the command of my clumsy hands. My main problem is counting in my head and knowin when to shift. I'm a visual person, as well as spacey, so when I have all these things running through my mind I really have to focus, but sometimes it's hard because I can't always visually process everything in front of me. I think I'm getting better though. I suppose practice is the key.
Well, that's enough of my musings for now.
Finding the dual nature in things always interests me. I love finding out unusual facts about people. It's always refreshing as it reminds me there's always more to see then what we initially perceive. It makes me want to dig deeper and see what else is hidden from my plain sight, fueling my curiosity. Irony is my favorite. It's entertaining and clever, but also cruel and bizarre. I suppose you could say irony itself is quite 'ironic'.
The blahness seems to have departed for the most part. My emotions at this moment are actually quite serene and peaceful. I'm not sure why. I suppose I shouldn't question it. I don't know if I'll ever fully understand the way my brain works, as much as I'd like to. Maybe if I ever get to study psychology I'll be able to find some answers. I'm so intriegued by the workings of the human mind. I know that it's impossible to understand, but nevertheless I want to learn as much as I can about it. I think this desire to study psychology my have stemmed from a desire to better understand myself and the people around me. What better way to understand something then going to its very core, in this case it would be the mind.
I found some lip balm in the pocket of my sweatshirt. Can you say "Victory!"? That's another one of the things that I really like. Finding lip balm. It's only second best to finding money. Okay, ultimate fantasy find right here, are you ready for this? Imagine finding lipbalm wrapped in a twenty dollar bill concealed within a love note. Could it get any better?
Let's take a little trip down memory lane...
Do you recall our musical interests from fourth/fifth grade? Enya and classical music? Well, I found myself reliving my fourth grade music interests this weekend. It all started with my nap friday. I decided to listen to some music to calm myself down and put myself in a sleepy mood as I fell asleep as well as drown out the murmur of the television downstairs. But I can't really listen to music with lyrics when I'm trying to slumber. I get lost and distracted by lyrics. So I'm thinking I may need to add some classical tracks to my ipod, such as Beehtoven and whatnot. Ha, I know, what a nerd right? To be honest though, I still like that kind of music. I just find it to be so soothing and elegant. I really hope I can master the piano. It's doubtfull that I'll be able to compose anything at all, but I would still be satisfied with the simple task of playing such a beautiful instrument. I really like the violin, but my playing was horrendous! I think the piano is a much safer choice sound-wise. It doesn't come out as harsh and squeeky under the command of my clumsy hands. My main problem is counting in my head and knowin when to shift. I'm a visual person, as well as spacey, so when I have all these things running through my mind I really have to focus, but sometimes it's hard because I can't always visually process everything in front of me. I think I'm getting better though. I suppose practice is the key.
Well, that's enough of my musings for now.
Thursday, November 13, 2008
Let's Start a Riot!
I think the reason for our excessive negativity is probably a side effect from our week of 'blah-ness.'
A positive week? Oh, Swan...I don't know if I'll make it. I'm sorry I can't always be such a happy sunshiney person all the time. Unfortunately, it's not part of my nature. But maybe if we make it a super awesome week of excitement and insanity it could happen. We can certainly try, but it will be a bit of a challenge.
I love this little mental connection we have. We must be on the same brainwaves or something. You are my soul sister.
I do love exclamation points as well. They're a happy burst of emotion. However I have been trying to cut back on my usage so I won't wear out the magic. So you list Katie's hands as one of your favorite things, but fail to overlook my cushy ones? I'm feeling betrayed.
Ah, the best thing ever happened today though. I was flipping through some of my old sketchbooks in search of some blank scrap paper, when I came across a folded up piece of notebook paper. Intrigued, I unfolded it and it read, "I love you Ands." It made me feel loved. I actually smiled, it was wonderful. It also inspired within me a fantastic idea. Whenever one of us is having a bad day, could we write each other a bunch of 'love' notes and hide them in one another's stuff? Please? Back to the sketchbook thing though, it was weird looking through my old sketches. It made for an interesting stroll down memory lane. Some of them were kind of cool, but a lot of them embarrassed me. It's so odd looking at what I did back then. Some of my sketches seemed so...immature? Not very developed. It's strange thinking about how much I've really changed over the years. It's crazy how much can change in only a years time.
Sometimes I feel as if life is passing me by too quickly. Especially when it comes to high school and college. I love Herron, but I'll have to leave it behind in less then two years. It really depresses me. I don't think I'm ready for college. I don't want to think about it. To be honest, I'm a bit apprehensive about it as well. How will I fare with other people? On one hand I've become more confident in my ability to talk to people, but in the 'real world' I'm not so sure how well it will work out. Not to mention how much I'll miss you and everyone else. Promise we'll keep in touch? But for now, I'm just trying to focus on now and enjoy this moment in my life while it lasts. Why can't we be 'forever young?' Can we be supersupersuper seniors? High schoolers for life!
To end on a positive note, here's a list of things I adore:
-peeling paint off of pallets
-finding forgotten love notes
-discovering awesome new music
-Sa Swa!
-randomly bursting into dance
-dance offs
-feasts
-Big Fish!
-movie marathons
-cold weather
-sing alongs (despite our lack of talent)
-walks
-the office
-hugs
-awkward moments, or at least hearing about them. Yours are the best Swany!
-cordory pants
-thrift stores/consignment shops
-staying up late
-dress down days
Let's start a riot!
Here's hoping for a more eventful weekend.
A positive week? Oh, Swan...I don't know if I'll make it. I'm sorry I can't always be such a happy sunshiney person all the time. Unfortunately, it's not part of my nature. But maybe if we make it a super awesome week of excitement and insanity it could happen. We can certainly try, but it will be a bit of a challenge.
I love this little mental connection we have. We must be on the same brainwaves or something. You are my soul sister.
I do love exclamation points as well. They're a happy burst of emotion. However I have been trying to cut back on my usage so I won't wear out the magic. So you list Katie's hands as one of your favorite things, but fail to overlook my cushy ones? I'm feeling betrayed.
Ah, the best thing ever happened today though. I was flipping through some of my old sketchbooks in search of some blank scrap paper, when I came across a folded up piece of notebook paper. Intrigued, I unfolded it and it read, "I love you Ands." It made me feel loved. I actually smiled, it was wonderful. It also inspired within me a fantastic idea. Whenever one of us is having a bad day, could we write each other a bunch of 'love' notes and hide them in one another's stuff? Please? Back to the sketchbook thing though, it was weird looking through my old sketches. It made for an interesting stroll down memory lane. Some of them were kind of cool, but a lot of them embarrassed me. It's so odd looking at what I did back then. Some of my sketches seemed so...immature? Not very developed. It's strange thinking about how much I've really changed over the years. It's crazy how much can change in only a years time.
Sometimes I feel as if life is passing me by too quickly. Especially when it comes to high school and college. I love Herron, but I'll have to leave it behind in less then two years. It really depresses me. I don't think I'm ready for college. I don't want to think about it. To be honest, I'm a bit apprehensive about it as well. How will I fare with other people? On one hand I've become more confident in my ability to talk to people, but in the 'real world' I'm not so sure how well it will work out. Not to mention how much I'll miss you and everyone else. Promise we'll keep in touch? But for now, I'm just trying to focus on now and enjoy this moment in my life while it lasts. Why can't we be 'forever young?' Can we be supersupersuper seniors? High schoolers for life!
To end on a positive note, here's a list of things I adore:
-peeling paint off of pallets
-finding forgotten love notes
-discovering awesome new music
-Sa Swa!
-randomly bursting into dance
-dance offs
-feasts
-Big Fish!
-movie marathons
-cold weather
-sing alongs (despite our lack of talent)
-walks
-the office
-hugs
-awkward moments, or at least hearing about them. Yours are the best Swany!
-cordory pants
-thrift stores/consignment shops
-staying up late
-dress down days
Let's start a riot!
Here's hoping for a more eventful weekend.
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
A Redo. May I?
So I read the other blogs that are dusting off the rust and shifting into gear, and realized every other one is pretty darn positive. I feel like I've been too negative. That's something I really want to change. "Accentuate the Positive" by Dr. John should be my theme song. Let's do a positive week! We will NOT let ourselves be sad. No self-pity (even though it can feel so luxurious), no moping. We will replace negatives with happy thoughts ("Go to our happy places"?). Is this possible? I think so. A Conscience decision to be joyful.
So, to start it off, things I adore:
`Sleeping in big beds
`Napping in a bed, preferably not my own
`Sleeping in other people's beds
`Nat King Cole+ Christmas music- I am so pumped for this holiday season!!!!! (oh Lineweaver, cringe at my exclamation points.)
`I'm not gonna lie, I'm pretty fond of exclamation points, especially in the middle of sentences. I think Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genius did that for me.
`LOVE that book. You must read it. I wonder how Abs is doing with it.
`When my hands aren't clammy or freezing off
`Holding hands with Kt jj. She has amazing hands, and it makes me feel like we are kids again.
`Darcy's laugh
`When we randomly bust a move
`This one facial expression of yours, I'll show it to you someday. I think you do it when you're telling me about something your excited about, like as in a story you're telling. I like when you are happy.
`Tambourines
`Bringin' it all Back Home
`Birthday party hats
`Mixes
`Running
`Blasting music and dancing while cleaning (shout-out to Auds!)
`Lydia's smell (haha is that weird? hm I think so. but I find it comforting for some reason)
`When the water is super smooth at practice
`The reservoir when it's raining
`Walking barefoot in really soft grass
`Nutmeg
I guess that's enough for now.
So, to start it off, things I adore:
`Sleeping in big beds
`Napping in a bed, preferably not my own
`Sleeping in other people's beds
`Nat King Cole+ Christmas music- I am so pumped for this holiday season!!!!! (oh Lineweaver, cringe at my exclamation points.)
`I'm not gonna lie, I'm pretty fond of exclamation points, especially in the middle of sentences. I think Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genius did that for me.
`LOVE that book. You must read it. I wonder how Abs is doing with it.
`When my hands aren't clammy or freezing off
`Holding hands with Kt jj. She has amazing hands, and it makes me feel like we are kids again.
`Darcy's laugh
`When we randomly bust a move
`This one facial expression of yours, I'll show it to you someday. I think you do it when you're telling me about something your excited about, like as in a story you're telling. I like when you are happy.
`Tambourines
`Bringin' it all Back Home
`Birthday party hats
`Mixes
`Running
`Blasting music and dancing while cleaning (shout-out to Auds!)
`Lydia's smell (haha is that weird? hm I think so. but I find it comforting for some reason)
`When the water is super smooth at practice
`The reservoir when it's raining
`Walking barefoot in really soft grass
`Nutmeg
I guess that's enough for now.
The Anatomy of Madness: Essays in the History of Psychiatry
The Reunion
My computer even remembered your email address login. Fate. I didn't know you wrote blogs over summer. This is weird going back and reading it all. Some of ours are pretty boring, not gonna lie. haha. Maybe our lives are just boring? Only not, we're awesome.
Maybe I'll play First Day of my Life for you. Only I'll sing it of course off tune. So maybe it's not a good idea, maybe it could ruin the song for you. Glory sakes alive that should never happen. But I agree it's extremely adorable and just *ah*.
I felt out of it today, at least in the afternoon. Very blah. and my hair's wet, so I'm like a repeat of your yesterday self.
I felt better when I went running with Sarah, though. It was pouring rain, and dark fell while we were out. Running in the rain at night is exhilarating and it made me feel so free.
Now I'm kind of back to blahness.
Military=me either. I can't even imagine killing someone. They're soft and squishy, and just like me. oh my I still can't imagine it. I can't get past the thought of a squishy stomach. Not sure why the squishy stomach is what keeps me from it. Maybe I could kill someone with rock-hard abs? I hope not.
Youseff=DOMINATOR
Winter stuff= oh, so happy. though the cold=I could do without a la moment.
CDs = Score! I have the new Weepies one waiting. Oh how I adore them.
Me= Terrible blogger. I'm sorry? I just really feel like I have nothing to say. Nothing unboring. I think I might go to sleep. It's 9 0'clock and an early bedtime would be wonderful again. Remember at the beginning of the year where I couldn't sleep? Now it's like the opposite. That no-sleeping phase was the weirdest thing ever. I just felt really buzzy all the time and amazing and I liked it. It felt like my life was building up to something fantastic. The result was really anti-climatic, I must say.
My computer even remembered your email address login. Fate. I didn't know you wrote blogs over summer. This is weird going back and reading it all. Some of ours are pretty boring, not gonna lie. haha. Maybe our lives are just boring? Only not, we're awesome.
Maybe I'll play First Day of my Life for you. Only I'll sing it of course off tune. So maybe it's not a good idea, maybe it could ruin the song for you. Glory sakes alive that should never happen. But I agree it's extremely adorable and just *ah*.
I felt out of it today, at least in the afternoon. Very blah. and my hair's wet, so I'm like a repeat of your yesterday self.
I felt better when I went running with Sarah, though. It was pouring rain, and dark fell while we were out. Running in the rain at night is exhilarating and it made me feel so free.
Now I'm kind of back to blahness.
Military=me either. I can't even imagine killing someone. They're soft and squishy, and just like me. oh my I still can't imagine it. I can't get past the thought of a squishy stomach. Not sure why the squishy stomach is what keeps me from it. Maybe I could kill someone with rock-hard abs? I hope not.
Youseff=DOMINATOR
Winter stuff= oh, so happy. though the cold=I could do without a la moment.
CDs = Score! I have the new Weepies one waiting. Oh how I adore them.
Me= Terrible blogger. I'm sorry? I just really feel like I have nothing to say. Nothing unboring. I think I might go to sleep. It's 9 0'clock and an early bedtime would be wonderful again. Remember at the beginning of the year where I couldn't sleep? Now it's like the opposite. That no-sleeping phase was the weirdest thing ever. I just felt really buzzy all the time and amazing and I liked it. It felt like my life was building up to something fantastic. The result was really anti-climatic, I must say.
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Revival
I am listening to "First Day of my Life." It's the most adorable song ever. If I ever find a soul mate/love/whatever you'd call it, I'd like them to sing this to me, or play it. Whichever works. If only that were my life...but I have you as a friend so it's all good.
I am so happy for you and Joel though. He seems to be a thoroughly decent person. Very sweet. I think you two make a nice match. Please tell him I approve, and let him know that I just have trouble when it comes to civilized conversation, especially via the phone.
I love not having homework. I miss having free time. I must admit, I've been feeling overwhelmed lately (but I'm sure you've already realized this). All the stress is gone, for now at least. Despite this temporary relief, I've been feeling a bit 'blah' today. I can't explain it. I guess I'm just going through 'one of those days.' Whatever that means. I'm sorry if I ramble. It seems to me as if I hardly make any sense, but rather I spew random collections of words.
I don't think I could ever make it in the military. I could not bring myself to kill another human being, no matter how treacherous of a criminal they may be. I've realized that this life that we have right now is all that we can be sure of. There may be an afterlife, but it's not a 100% guarantee. That why we have to value the life we have now. This is our one for sure chance. Once, it's gone it could just be the end. I could never take that chance away from anyone else. Besides, what am I but a mere human being? Prone to bias. I have no right to make the decision of who lives and who dies. Besides, if one could kill so easily, would such action and insensitivity not level him or her with 'the bad guys'? How would we be any different from them if we were to succumb to such insensitivity and disregard for human life?
It's homeroom turkey time! I spent the other night scouring the old papers for a turkey, and finally found one. Yussef Hauss must rise to victory.
Shivers are running up my spin as my hair is still wet from the shower. Oddly enough though, I find myself enjoying this weather. I can't wait for snow, but at the same time it will be sad to see autumn leave. I love bundling up though, that's for sure. Sweaters, coats, mittens, and scarves! Oh, and really spectacular winter hats. Ah, and sipping hot cocoa or cider while wrapped up in a blanket reading a good book. How I love the cold...why am I so abnormal?
So excited, I have a bunch of CD's in at the library, including the new Margot album! I can't wait. Hopefully my mom will be able to swing by and pick them up tomorrow while I'm at school. I really want to hear their new album and see how it compares to the old. Their concert was amazing. It was the most blissful thing ever. The power of music. I especially loved singing along to their old songs. Thankfully they had the volume turned up pretty loud so that it drowned out my horrendous attempt at song.
This is where my ramblings end.
I am so happy for you and Joel though. He seems to be a thoroughly decent person. Very sweet. I think you two make a nice match. Please tell him I approve, and let him know that I just have trouble when it comes to civilized conversation, especially via the phone.
I love not having homework. I miss having free time. I must admit, I've been feeling overwhelmed lately (but I'm sure you've already realized this). All the stress is gone, for now at least. Despite this temporary relief, I've been feeling a bit 'blah' today. I can't explain it. I guess I'm just going through 'one of those days.' Whatever that means. I'm sorry if I ramble. It seems to me as if I hardly make any sense, but rather I spew random collections of words.
I don't think I could ever make it in the military. I could not bring myself to kill another human being, no matter how treacherous of a criminal they may be. I've realized that this life that we have right now is all that we can be sure of. There may be an afterlife, but it's not a 100% guarantee. That why we have to value the life we have now. This is our one for sure chance. Once, it's gone it could just be the end. I could never take that chance away from anyone else. Besides, what am I but a mere human being? Prone to bias. I have no right to make the decision of who lives and who dies. Besides, if one could kill so easily, would such action and insensitivity not level him or her with 'the bad guys'? How would we be any different from them if we were to succumb to such insensitivity and disregard for human life?
It's homeroom turkey time! I spent the other night scouring the old papers for a turkey, and finally found one. Yussef Hauss must rise to victory.
Shivers are running up my spin as my hair is still wet from the shower. Oddly enough though, I find myself enjoying this weather. I can't wait for snow, but at the same time it will be sad to see autumn leave. I love bundling up though, that's for sure. Sweaters, coats, mittens, and scarves! Oh, and really spectacular winter hats. Ah, and sipping hot cocoa or cider while wrapped up in a blanket reading a good book. How I love the cold...why am I so abnormal?
So excited, I have a bunch of CD's in at the library, including the new Margot album! I can't wait. Hopefully my mom will be able to swing by and pick them up tomorrow while I'm at school. I really want to hear their new album and see how it compares to the old. Their concert was amazing. It was the most blissful thing ever. The power of music. I especially loved singing along to their old songs. Thankfully they had the volume turned up pretty loud so that it drowned out my horrendous attempt at song.
This is where my ramblings end.
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
I Dreamed I Was a Ghost
last night.
When the dream began I was with you Sa and some other people from school. Then then next thing I know I'm in a building that is combusting/collapsing at the same time. Although it was surprisingly painless. Weird. Anyways, when I got outside I tried talking to people I knew but no one could hear me no matter how loud I shouted, nor could they see me. My dreams seem to be getting darker, except this one for some odd reason did not scare me as much as the one I had the other week when I almost got swallowed up by a tornado.
I've been working on my summer reading. I'm glad you enjoyed It's Kind of a Funny Story. My sources(i.e. Taylor) informs me that we unfortunately have a summer list to complete. Ick. I like reading but summer reading lists tend to put me to sleep. I love reading, but when I have to worry about analyzing every detail of what I'm reading for a future paper(that I will regretably have to write when I should be slacking off) just tends to take away from my enjoyment of it.
I am leaving in four days.
I'm leaving Saturday. I
When the dream began I was with you Sa and some other people from school. Then then next thing I know I'm in a building that is combusting/collapsing at the same time. Although it was surprisingly painless. Weird. Anyways, when I got outside I tried talking to people I knew but no one could hear me no matter how loud I shouted, nor could they see me. My dreams seem to be getting darker, except this one for some odd reason did not scare me as much as the one I had the other week when I almost got swallowed up by a tornado.
I've been working on my summer reading. I'm glad you enjoyed It's Kind of a Funny Story. My sources(i.e. Taylor) informs me that we unfortunately have a summer list to complete. Ick. I like reading but summer reading lists tend to put me to sleep. I love reading, but when I have to worry about analyzing every detail of what I'm reading for a future paper(that I will regretably have to write when I should be slacking off) just tends to take away from my enjoyment of it.
I am leaving in four days.
I'm leaving Saturday. I
Thursday, June 12, 2008
Bruised
I don't remember exactly how it happened. All I know is that when I climbed out of the pool my left pinky toe felt quite sore. Upon further inspection, I realized that I had somehow managed to bruise (if not break) the entirety of my toe. It was, and still is covered, in splotches of blue/black and deep redish purple hues. Somehow I had managed to injure myself at the pool. I'm guessing it is likely that it happened while I was jumping into the shallow end of the pool although I can't be sure. It's unusual though, because as often as I make a fool of myself with my klutsy nature, I rarely end up injuring myself, and I've been involved in some pretty ridiculous incidents. Thankfully though, I am able to walk on it so hopefully that means it's not actually broken.
On a happier note, I am definantly looking forward to working on our fantastic summer list. Hopefully it will keep us occupied for most of the time so I won't end up staring into space with nothing to do. Such always seems to be the risk with all of this freedom, a lack of things to do. Thankfully we have a pretty extensive list of summer activities. I am greatly anticipating color day.
I am already 2/3 through with the driving portion of drivers ed. Huzzah.
Poppy Shakespeare was phenominal! I just finished it the other week and I absolutely loved it. I definantly think that the ending really helped my opinion of the book. Which reminds me that I still have to finish One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest. Although, overall I have to say It's Kind of a Funny Story, is definantly my favorite relating to the subject, actually it's probably my all time favorite book. Reading Poppy Shakespeare though kind of got me thinking about those whom society deems as "mentally ill." What if some of these so called mentally ill patients are actually created by the workings of society. Maybe we only think of them in such a way because they do not fit in with our view of how other members of society should conduct themselvs. Maybe we create these classifications of others to make ourselves feel better about our standing in society. Maybe?
It's been forever since we made one of our lists so I'm going to make two:
numero uno is favorite smells:
1)the smell of a bonfire, it always reminds me of fall(pretty much my favorite season)
2)the smell of my granny's house
3)the smell of my pillow, it reminds me of sleep and calm.
4)any good smelling food, this would probably include spicey foods, and chocolate
numero dos is current favorite songs
1)the artist by the hush sound, love the lyrics
2)mariella by kate nash, i adore her voice, plus the song tells a nice little story
3)the car song by the cat empire
Happy Summer!
On a happier note, I am definantly looking forward to working on our fantastic summer list. Hopefully it will keep us occupied for most of the time so I won't end up staring into space with nothing to do. Such always seems to be the risk with all of this freedom, a lack of things to do. Thankfully we have a pretty extensive list of summer activities. I am greatly anticipating color day.
I am already 2/3 through with the driving portion of drivers ed. Huzzah.
Poppy Shakespeare was phenominal! I just finished it the other week and I absolutely loved it. I definantly think that the ending really helped my opinion of the book. Which reminds me that I still have to finish One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest. Although, overall I have to say It's Kind of a Funny Story, is definantly my favorite relating to the subject, actually it's probably my all time favorite book. Reading Poppy Shakespeare though kind of got me thinking about those whom society deems as "mentally ill." What if some of these so called mentally ill patients are actually created by the workings of society. Maybe we only think of them in such a way because they do not fit in with our view of how other members of society should conduct themselvs. Maybe we create these classifications of others to make ourselves feel better about our standing in society. Maybe?
It's been forever since we made one of our lists so I'm going to make two:
numero uno is favorite smells:
1)the smell of a bonfire, it always reminds me of fall(pretty much my favorite season)
2)the smell of my granny's house
3)the smell of my pillow, it reminds me of sleep and calm.
4)any good smelling food, this would probably include spicey foods, and chocolate
numero dos is current favorite songs
1)the artist by the hush sound, love the lyrics
2)mariella by kate nash, i adore her voice, plus the song tells a nice little story
3)the car song by the cat empire
Happy Summer!
Sunday, June 8, 2008
Almost There
Ah, only three days of school left! As much as I love it, i must say I'm ready for it to be over. I have reached a point of final exhaustion. Hopefully I'll be able to make it through these next few days. I've been working on my final project this weekend. I didn't realize it would involve so much detail. I suppose that's a good thing though because it will help add on more hours to the time I spent on it. I'll feel so relieved once it's all over.
Summer is going to be ah-mazing though! All thanks to our most awesome summer list!!! I am so excited. I hope we can complete all of it, there are so many awesome feats to complete this summer. I am particularly excited for color day. I can tell this is going to be a good summer.
Was the talent show not amazing?! The acts were amazing. I do agree that the diverse mix of acts was nice. Especially compared to Pike's which pretty much just turned into a crump-a-thon this year. It was kinda funny, but after a while it all seemed the same. The people in our school's though were pretty talented. OH MAN, but that random homeless guy totally made the show for me. I think what made that whole scenario so great was that fact the it was Hurst who had to deal with it. I was dissapointed that the show had to be cut short though. Hopefully there will be a time for them to finish off the last act.
Well, summer is practically here, get excited!!!
Summer is going to be ah-mazing though! All thanks to our most awesome summer list!!! I am so excited. I hope we can complete all of it, there are so many awesome feats to complete this summer. I am particularly excited for color day. I can tell this is going to be a good summer.
Was the talent show not amazing?! The acts were amazing. I do agree that the diverse mix of acts was nice. Especially compared to Pike's which pretty much just turned into a crump-a-thon this year. It was kinda funny, but after a while it all seemed the same. The people in our school's though were pretty talented. OH MAN, but that random homeless guy totally made the show for me. I think what made that whole scenario so great was that fact the it was Hurst who had to deal with it. I was dissapointed that the show had to be cut short though. Hopefully there will be a time for them to finish off the last act.
Well, summer is practically here, get excited!!!
Friday, May 23, 2008
Hello Old Blog
Man, it has been so long since i wrote on this blog. Remember the begining of this blog trend? It was so awesome! I think maybe we need to revive this lovely trend. It's difficult to keep up with though on a daily basis with all of our end of the year projects. I do like our blog though, it's such a shame I've been so occupied with other stuff lately.
Anyways, in recent news, Sa, Lyd and I have been walking to the library the past two days after school. It was such amazing weather too with blue skies and the sun shining down. Of course now it is raining. Honestly, it seems as if it only rains on the weekends when we actually have time off. I am definantly thinking though that we should be spending a lot more time walking to the library when the weather is appropriate. And these random people we see are pretty amusing too....
Three Day Weekend!!! So pysched, although it's quite likely that I will probably spend the majority of the weekend working on all of my school work. Or perhaps even more likely, I will intend to work on them but in actuality we all know I'll find something less productive to do. Chances are that all of my work will pile up until the very last week and I'll have to rush. I know that I've always procrastinated in the past but it's at an all time worse this year. Honestly. Last year I would have finished a project the weekend before it was due but now a days I wait till the night before. The odd thing is that even though I know I have a lot of responsibilities to tend to I just can't bring myself to care....Maybe I'm just lazy or too focused on the coming summer holiday to give much attention to school work. Hopefully it will pass though, but it's difficult when you're apathetic about being apathetic. I doubt that made any sense....
A night on the town sounds awesome right now. Hopefully I can work something out. Swing dancing and or bowling sounds fantastic for I haven't been it what seems like forever. I remember that we would always go last year, but we would always be so drained by the end of the week that we could barely stand, let alone dance for two hours. Yet somehow I still managed to go and enjoy it. Of course, it was also a bunch of elderly people too whenever we went too. I remember when you, Sa, danced with that old man, haha. Good times.
P.S. latest music obsession=Kate Nash!!! I absolutely LOVE her voice. Man, I wish could sing like her. Ah, she's amazing though, a must for musical listening.
....that was so akwardly worded
Anyways, in recent news, Sa, Lyd and I have been walking to the library the past two days after school. It was such amazing weather too with blue skies and the sun shining down. Of course now it is raining. Honestly, it seems as if it only rains on the weekends when we actually have time off. I am definantly thinking though that we should be spending a lot more time walking to the library when the weather is appropriate. And these random people we see are pretty amusing too....
Three Day Weekend!!! So pysched, although it's quite likely that I will probably spend the majority of the weekend working on all of my school work. Or perhaps even more likely, I will intend to work on them but in actuality we all know I'll find something less productive to do. Chances are that all of my work will pile up until the very last week and I'll have to rush. I know that I've always procrastinated in the past but it's at an all time worse this year. Honestly. Last year I would have finished a project the weekend before it was due but now a days I wait till the night before. The odd thing is that even though I know I have a lot of responsibilities to tend to I just can't bring myself to care....Maybe I'm just lazy or too focused on the coming summer holiday to give much attention to school work. Hopefully it will pass though, but it's difficult when you're apathetic about being apathetic. I doubt that made any sense....
A night on the town sounds awesome right now. Hopefully I can work something out. Swing dancing and or bowling sounds fantastic for I haven't been it what seems like forever. I remember that we would always go last year, but we would always be so drained by the end of the week that we could barely stand, let alone dance for two hours. Yet somehow I still managed to go and enjoy it. Of course, it was also a bunch of elderly people too whenever we went too. I remember when you, Sa, danced with that old man, haha. Good times.
P.S. latest music obsession=Kate Nash!!! I absolutely LOVE her voice. Man, I wish could sing like her. Ah, she's amazing though, a must for musical listening.
....that was so akwardly worded
Monday, February 4, 2008
musical moods
I sometimes wish that Ben Gibbard lived in my basement and that he would play beautiful compostions on his guitar accompanied with the soothing sound of his lyrics and that they would float up through the vents and fill my house with their heavenly sound. That would be amazing. I could be up reading late into the night when I'd randomly hear that beautiful music playing in the backround soothing me to sleep.
Speaking of my basement though, I am considering the possibility that our old tv down there may possibly be possessed. Not quite certain whether to take that assumption as solid fact or fiction but i had the oddest experience this afternoon. So when I got home from school I decided to run on the treadmill down there while watching malcolm in the middle, and suddenly the screen just turns to static and all I can hear is white noise. I then try turning the channel and then try to turn it off, but the TV wouldn't. I couldn't even shut the power off on it so I pretty much had to completely unplugg it and then plug it back in. It worked for a while before doing the exact same thing happened again. It also did this thing where random numbers just started randomly changing in the corner where the number of the channel satition should be but i wasn't even holding a remote. So freaky! It's unplugged now though so hopefully it hasn't found a way to turn itself on, which according to my parents that tv use to randomly turn itself on in the middle of the night. Super creepy. My only explaination for these odd occurancies is that it's a pretty old tv, actually I think it may have been my great grandmother's tv or something like that.
Our poor blog has fallen out of use temporarily. It is quite sad. I suppose we are just really lazy. Or just have lives with better things to do in our spare time, haha.
So I was talking to Auds in ceramics, she told me about you're whole "So how long have you and Abby been going out?" conversation, and we think that we should have another homeroom party soon because we haven't had one in quite a while and they always make my day ten times better. I mean, how can good food and a party not put you in a good mood? I'm thinking next week or possibly this week if we can figure something out because we need something to look forward too(not that I don't love school already or anything, but it would be like the frosting on the cake, you know? wait, you don't like frosting, so uh maybe ignor that analogy...)
Speaking of my basement though, I am considering the possibility that our old tv down there may possibly be possessed. Not quite certain whether to take that assumption as solid fact or fiction but i had the oddest experience this afternoon. So when I got home from school I decided to run on the treadmill down there while watching malcolm in the middle, and suddenly the screen just turns to static and all I can hear is white noise. I then try turning the channel and then try to turn it off, but the TV wouldn't. I couldn't even shut the power off on it so I pretty much had to completely unplugg it and then plug it back in. It worked for a while before doing the exact same thing happened again. It also did this thing where random numbers just started randomly changing in the corner where the number of the channel satition should be but i wasn't even holding a remote. So freaky! It's unplugged now though so hopefully it hasn't found a way to turn itself on, which according to my parents that tv use to randomly turn itself on in the middle of the night. Super creepy. My only explaination for these odd occurancies is that it's a pretty old tv, actually I think it may have been my great grandmother's tv or something like that.
Our poor blog has fallen out of use temporarily. It is quite sad. I suppose we are just really lazy. Or just have lives with better things to do in our spare time, haha.
So I was talking to Auds in ceramics, she told me about you're whole "So how long have you and Abby been going out?" conversation, and we think that we should have another homeroom party soon because we haven't had one in quite a while and they always make my day ten times better. I mean, how can good food and a party not put you in a good mood? I'm thinking next week or possibly this week if we can figure something out because we need something to look forward too(not that I don't love school already or anything, but it would be like the frosting on the cake, you know? wait, you don't like frosting, so uh maybe ignor that analogy...)
Sunday, January 13, 2008
Sawing Away
Today I learned how to use the wood saw! I'm pretty much a handyman now if I do say so myself. You should've seen me, sawing away while wearing my swan sunglasses. It was terrific. I love my dad so much. He's like my little guru that knows random bits about everything and is so passionate about life. I love him. Plus, he makes good food.
So tell me more about your parents altar getting set on fire. This intrigues me to no end. I might just daydream about it now.
I like your time theory, though one part confused me a lot.
Dane Cook? Glory May! Let's have a Dane Cook listening party. With Lauren. We'll be like Ralphie listening to the Little Orphan Annie show.
I like the word spindly too. It does bring up really mystical illustrations.
I might have a job at Amore!! I went in there yesterday and was like "Um, I applied for a job here a couple of weeks ago, do you know who I could talk to about that?" and this guy was like "Me", which took me aback cause he looked really young, but apparently it's his brothers that own the place. A cute Italian family. Oh wonder. When I mentioned that I could work Fridays he was like "Fridays?!? We'll call you this week and we might have you start this Friday" I'm pretty nervous now. I need to find out how to get a work permit. I think I have to get one from the school. The bad part about working there will be the heat. All those ovens. I am going to melt/sweat away. I'm pretty excited though! Except, when was the dance rescheduled to? I hope I don't have to miss it.
My dad and I are about to go to this concert at my church. It's this quartet called the Orkestra Projekt. Apparently they're really eclectic and weird. I'm excited. When I heard about it, it reminded me of Audrey. Her and her cello.
See you tomorrow Tultsatoompa!
So tell me more about your parents altar getting set on fire. This intrigues me to no end. I might just daydream about it now.
I like your time theory, though one part confused me a lot.
Dane Cook? Glory May! Let's have a Dane Cook listening party. With Lauren. We'll be like Ralphie listening to the Little Orphan Annie show.
I like the word spindly too. It does bring up really mystical illustrations.
I might have a job at Amore!! I went in there yesterday and was like "Um, I applied for a job here a couple of weeks ago, do you know who I could talk to about that?" and this guy was like "Me", which took me aback cause he looked really young, but apparently it's his brothers that own the place. A cute Italian family. Oh wonder. When I mentioned that I could work Fridays he was like "Fridays?!? We'll call you this week and we might have you start this Friday" I'm pretty nervous now. I need to find out how to get a work permit. I think I have to get one from the school. The bad part about working there will be the heat. All those ovens. I am going to melt/sweat away. I'm pretty excited though! Except, when was the dance rescheduled to? I hope I don't have to miss it.
My dad and I are about to go to this concert at my church. It's this quartet called the Orkestra Projekt. Apparently they're really eclectic and weird. I'm excited. When I heard about it, it reminded me of Audrey. Her and her cello.
See you tomorrow Tultsatoompa!
Saturday, January 12, 2008
B Lunch Band Reunited
Yes, last night was amazing! gah, I miss Kaitlynn so much, she's amazing. For that hour and a half it felt like the good(emphasis on the good portion) ol' days at PHS. The playing of invisible instruments, the food which Kaitlynn would occationally smell(except tastier, haha), the juicy gossip. And if I closed my eyes I could see Mr. Kudre (sp??) and Mr. Kudre's Son. Despite the fact that I pretty much despised that school I still feel some sort of kinship to it, like it will always be a small part of me or something. La Trois should have these girl dates more often with our friends we rarely ever get to see.(By the way, I love how you straightened your hair in honor of having dinner with Kaitlynn). Kate says she's going to try and get our little gang together soon. That would be cool, we never really get to see her much either.
Today I went to Super Target(j'adore!), and I had a gift card so I got a set of three Dane Cook CDs, score! I was listening to one earlier, and it has the monkey heist one that you like. Ah, I don't think anything gets me as pumped as listening to Dane. It just makes you so happy and full of energy. Oh, and I wore my hair up in a pony-tail today, which was a bit of an odd change for me. Maybe I will wear it like that to school sometime. What is with all these slight little alterations in my apperance? We also rented "Stardust" which we're going to watch later tonight. I wanted to get Labyrinth, but my dad said he would get it for me next weekend since my sister was more inclined to get "Stardust". So next weekend I will finally get to see the wonder of "Labyrinth" which I am greatly looking forward too.
I think that time may just be some made up meathod of humans to measure how quickly our lives go past. Your theory is pretty interesting. What if time just passes at it's own rate, but for some reason we don't really notice it because it affects our perspective at the present time and we don't clearly recognized the change until after that moment has passed?(if this even makes any sense to you). Hm, it's an interesting theory for sure though. Maybe what I'm trying to say is a) maybe it doesn't really exist at all, maybe it's just a made up concept of humanity. Or b) it is it's own master on to itself and passes as it pleases.
As for my lovely List:
1.Spindely-i hope i spelled this right, but anyways it makes me think of fairy tales and fairy creatures with delicate yet twisted limbs. How odd.
2. Frugal-who doesn't like saying "frugal"?
3. Aloof-funny word for being an outcast or a loner, kind of funny in a harsh way i guess...
4. Eloquent-it sounds really fluid to me, i don't know what i'm saying really. i pretty much just made these up in 30 seconds with little time for contemplation.
Okay, so why are three out of four of my words vocab words from either middle school or this year?
I can't believe it. Despite my determination not to make a fool of my klutzy self at school, the first day back I tripped on the stair first thing in the morning on my way to class. Thankfully no one was around to witness it. My knee is still bruised and a littled scabby(sorry, you didn't really need to know that I guess), and it still stings sometimes. So, I seem to pretty much be a walking train-wreck these days...I'll probably set the alter on fire at our wedding, haha. (Actually I think that happened at my parents wedding). Either that, or I will trip on my dress, that is if La Trois decides to wear dresses that are floor length. If not, then just tripping over my own two feet will suffice.
Today I went to Super Target(j'adore!), and I had a gift card so I got a set of three Dane Cook CDs, score! I was listening to one earlier, and it has the monkey heist one that you like. Ah, I don't think anything gets me as pumped as listening to Dane. It just makes you so happy and full of energy. Oh, and I wore my hair up in a pony-tail today, which was a bit of an odd change for me. Maybe I will wear it like that to school sometime. What is with all these slight little alterations in my apperance? We also rented "Stardust" which we're going to watch later tonight. I wanted to get Labyrinth, but my dad said he would get it for me next weekend since my sister was more inclined to get "Stardust". So next weekend I will finally get to see the wonder of "Labyrinth" which I am greatly looking forward too.
I think that time may just be some made up meathod of humans to measure how quickly our lives go past. Your theory is pretty interesting. What if time just passes at it's own rate, but for some reason we don't really notice it because it affects our perspective at the present time and we don't clearly recognized the change until after that moment has passed?(if this even makes any sense to you). Hm, it's an interesting theory for sure though. Maybe what I'm trying to say is a) maybe it doesn't really exist at all, maybe it's just a made up concept of humanity. Or b) it is it's own master on to itself and passes as it pleases.
As for my lovely List:
1.Spindely-i hope i spelled this right, but anyways it makes me think of fairy tales and fairy creatures with delicate yet twisted limbs. How odd.
2. Frugal-who doesn't like saying "frugal"?
3. Aloof-funny word for being an outcast or a loner, kind of funny in a harsh way i guess...
4. Eloquent-it sounds really fluid to me, i don't know what i'm saying really. i pretty much just made these up in 30 seconds with little time for contemplation.
Okay, so why are three out of four of my words vocab words from either middle school or this year?
I can't believe it. Despite my determination not to make a fool of my klutzy self at school, the first day back I tripped on the stair first thing in the morning on my way to class. Thankfully no one was around to witness it. My knee is still bruised and a littled scabby(sorry, you didn't really need to know that I guess), and it still stings sometimes. So, I seem to pretty much be a walking train-wreck these days...I'll probably set the alter on fire at our wedding, haha. (Actually I think that happened at my parents wedding). Either that, or I will trip on my dress, that is if La Trois decides to wear dresses that are floor length. If not, then just tripping over my own two feet will suffice.
Pumpkin
Last night was so much fun. It was definitely better than watching a movie because with those you are watching someone else's life. We were living our own instead! Ah, I love you guys more than food. It was simply amazing seeing Kaitlynn again and eating all that good food.
I'm home alone right now. I love it. I get to blast music and sing along. Although, I should be doing my project and studying. I'm really nervous for my music independent project. I wish I had remembered to bring my violin home.
When Dary and I were talking Thursday night, we both agreed this week had gone by super fast. Then we started wondering if time does actually collectively speed up. It's not just when you're having fun that it goes fast. I think time might actually slow itself down and then speed up whenever it wants. Like, those times when there were a lot of geniuses and many discoveries (like the Renaissance) they just had more time, and those times we think of as "Stupid years" (At this point, Darcy went "Yeah, like the 1920s!" I'm not quite sure why) just didn't have as much time. We always say those who accomplish a lot use their time well. But what if it's time that's using them? I remember talking to Kelsey and Erin the summer after my sixth grade year (they would've been just out of, um, freshman year, i think), and we all agreed that that year was really speedy. Maybe that's when our present age started losing time. But what is time anyways? planet movements? our clocks? numbers? I never thought numbers could completely describe something. For example, when someone says "I saw two people." There's so much more to those people than the fact that they were standing together. So maybe time has something else to it besides the numbers we try to capture it in. Like, some insane need to speed up and slow down willy nilly. What do you think?
I'm pretty excited for Le Trois's mock wedding this summer. I think Lydia's house would be a good place. Her parents wouldn't be that bad at all. Will Don might attack people with his fake gun, but you know, things like that happen. haha. Like when he tried to smother me with a pillow. Ah, good times.
Well, I really have to do that project! How about a quick list? Um, thinking, thinking, thinking-favorite English words?
1. Serendipity-Fun to say, comforting meaning
2. Catywampus-such a folksy word. my mom uses it all the time. I can't believe you grew up in Indiana and never heard it until me. Though, I guess your parents were raised further North, so it's really not your fault.
3. Superfluous-I love saying it. It just tastes good.
4. Notion-A Sadaka favorite
Perhaps is also a nice one, especially in the the song.
PS. It's interesting that you klutziness decided to reassert itself in a chocolate shop. Maybe it loves breakable things?
I'm home alone right now. I love it. I get to blast music and sing along. Although, I should be doing my project and studying. I'm really nervous for my music independent project. I wish I had remembered to bring my violin home.
When Dary and I were talking Thursday night, we both agreed this week had gone by super fast. Then we started wondering if time does actually collectively speed up. It's not just when you're having fun that it goes fast. I think time might actually slow itself down and then speed up whenever it wants. Like, those times when there were a lot of geniuses and many discoveries (like the Renaissance) they just had more time, and those times we think of as "Stupid years" (At this point, Darcy went "Yeah, like the 1920s!" I'm not quite sure why) just didn't have as much time. We always say those who accomplish a lot use their time well. But what if it's time that's using them? I remember talking to Kelsey and Erin the summer after my sixth grade year (they would've been just out of, um, freshman year, i think), and we all agreed that that year was really speedy. Maybe that's when our present age started losing time. But what is time anyways? planet movements? our clocks? numbers? I never thought numbers could completely describe something. For example, when someone says "I saw two people." There's so much more to those people than the fact that they were standing together. So maybe time has something else to it besides the numbers we try to capture it in. Like, some insane need to speed up and slow down willy nilly. What do you think?
I'm pretty excited for Le Trois's mock wedding this summer. I think Lydia's house would be a good place. Her parents wouldn't be that bad at all. Will Don might attack people with his fake gun, but you know, things like that happen. haha. Like when he tried to smother me with a pillow. Ah, good times.
Well, I really have to do that project! How about a quick list? Um, thinking, thinking, thinking-favorite English words?
1. Serendipity-Fun to say, comforting meaning
2. Catywampus-such a folksy word. my mom uses it all the time. I can't believe you grew up in Indiana and never heard it until me. Though, I guess your parents were raised further North, so it's really not your fault.
3. Superfluous-I love saying it. It just tastes good.
4. Notion-A Sadaka favorite
Perhaps is also a nice one, especially in the the song.
PS. It's interesting that you klutziness decided to reassert itself in a chocolate shop. Maybe it loves breakable things?
Sunday, January 6, 2008
The End and The Begining
Vacation has finally come to an end. Although I must say that I am actually looking forward to going back to school, I adore Herron, I really do. Haha, this from the girl who also adores the idea on living in NY. I am still afraid of sinking back into the normal routine of life. It does not feel like vacation is over yet, and my mind is still not fully here yet. I still feel kind of disconnected back home. I am looking forward to seeing you and everyone else tomorrow though. I would miss you most if I were to ever move. But even so, it would still work out in the end, it has too. However, it's just a thought, I wouldn't worry about me moving. Not now.
Man, I have to finish my independent projects though this week. I swear, I definantly put in more the 10 hours on each. Gah, they're so exhausting. Hopefully I will get one of them done tomorrow or Tuesday and then I'll only have to finish my painting one. School takes up so much of my time, but then again I do love school so I don't really mind all that much.
I am hoping that my increased klutzyness wears down on my return to school though. I do not need to fall down another flight of stairs, especially in front of a bunch of other people who will probably snear at and mock me for it. That's for sure. Not to mention the fact that the stairs are cement and not carpeted. Ouch! Although, I'm doubtful of whether or not the habbit of knocking over everything in sight will totally cease. Walking disaster? Possibly. At least I don't take things too seriously and am able to laugh this kind of thing off for the most part.
Oh, so over break my family has taken to the habbit of joking with my sister about how she's going to live in a trailer park in the future. And since we all love lists so much, here's a list of the reasons:
1. She has a southern accent(which, by the way, has dramatically increased over the break.)
2. She never wears shoes(this counts as evidence according to my parents)
3. She plans to overload her house with loads and loads and loads of christmas lights durring the holidays, which she plans to keep up from november through february.
4. She likes the sun and the warmth, so she's probably going to live in the south in the future
Haha, I like our profile pic, man that thing is so old though, I mean look at my hair. Actually I just consider anything in which my hair is long to be old, even though I don't really think that two years is all that old. You should print out a copy of it and our glorious awesomeness for Audrey's locker.
Man, I have to finish my independent projects though this week. I swear, I definantly put in more the 10 hours on each. Gah, they're so exhausting. Hopefully I will get one of them done tomorrow or Tuesday and then I'll only have to finish my painting one. School takes up so much of my time, but then again I do love school so I don't really mind all that much.
I am hoping that my increased klutzyness wears down on my return to school though. I do not need to fall down another flight of stairs, especially in front of a bunch of other people who will probably snear at and mock me for it. That's for sure. Not to mention the fact that the stairs are cement and not carpeted. Ouch! Although, I'm doubtful of whether or not the habbit of knocking over everything in sight will totally cease. Walking disaster? Possibly. At least I don't take things too seriously and am able to laugh this kind of thing off for the most part.
Oh, so over break my family has taken to the habbit of joking with my sister about how she's going to live in a trailer park in the future. And since we all love lists so much, here's a list of the reasons:
1. She has a southern accent(which, by the way, has dramatically increased over the break.)
2. She never wears shoes(this counts as evidence according to my parents)
3. She plans to overload her house with loads and loads and loads of christmas lights durring the holidays, which she plans to keep up from november through february.
4. She likes the sun and the warmth, so she's probably going to live in the south in the future
Haha, I like our profile pic, man that thing is so old though, I mean look at my hair. Actually I just consider anything in which my hair is long to be old, even though I don't really think that two years is all that old. You should print out a copy of it and our glorious awesomeness for Audrey's locker.
Saturday, January 5, 2008
Vacation's Come and Gone Too Fast
Ah, New York was awesome as always. I know some people get sick of their families sometimes but i absolutely adore mine. It's always a blast. It may sound weird, but i feel so sad being back home. I always miss New York and my family when we leave though, and I will admit that I sometimes cry when we leave. Ah, it's so embarasssing though. And every year I tell my parents we should just move to New York. This year, I was half serious when I said it. I think if I was totally committed to moving up north that there's a chance my parents would follow through. The only person I'd really have to convince is Alex. But I know my dad would like to live up there. It's strange. When I got home I walked into the house and everything felt so surreal. It doesn't smell like home, it smells like some new house. And I stand there for a brief moment and think, this doesn't feel like home, this isn't home. It's too quiet. Too weird. I still haven't turned on the lights in my room. I'm afraid too, but why I don't know. I guess I'm homesick for New York. How did I get so attached to it? I don't get it though. I mean, I love my life here, my friends, and school and I would miss all of you guys so much(of course you'd be able to come and visit if we ever did move so it's not like i'd never see you guys again). Yet I still feel so desperate to move. Maybe it will go away as time passes. Oh I don't know. But it wouldn't be this year if we ever did move that's for sure. Besides, I got this pretty dress for a formal and it would be a shame not to get to wear it, haha. It's still all so confussing.
But overall my break was great. We saw the golden compass, went to my aunt and her boyfriend's house, went shopping, hung out with all of my family and celebrated christmas four times or something haha. It was awesome seeing my family and Alex and I hung out a lot of the time.
I haven't been able to check our blog much either so it's okay, haha. We're both slackers, nothing new there. Maybe we could do something tomorrow? IF you ever check this in time that is, haha.
P.S. Al and I got skinny jeans for Christmas too!
But overall my break was great. We saw the golden compass, went to my aunt and her boyfriend's house, went shopping, hung out with all of my family and celebrated christmas four times or something haha. It was awesome seeing my family and Alex and I hung out a lot of the time.
I haven't been able to check our blog much either so it's okay, haha. We're both slackers, nothing new there. Maybe we could do something tomorrow? IF you ever check this in time that is, haha.
P.S. Al and I got skinny jeans for Christmas too!
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